As I sit here at my desk today staring out my wonderful window, I can see the road, trees, beautiful sky and every now and then an airplane coming in for a landing or taking off. I wonder about what Ethan and Eric are doing right now. I think about a grateful I am to have a nice office and great view. I use this window to gain a little perspective throughout my day. I may be really busy some days and take a minute to look out my window and remember how beautiful life is. I may be not so busy and look out my window to think about everyone else who is really busy and what else I could be doing right now to help them. It helps me remember that outside that window is a great big world and for now, this moment, my place in this world is right here at this window; safe, sound and working. I wish all of those that I love have their own little “window” today that helps them gain perspective on this amazing life God has blessed us with. For now.. I am going to find a nice cup of coffee to enjoy at my window.
Tonight.. I am talking about a passage of scripture that talks about remaining in the vine. Lately, I have been contemplating a lot of things about my life. You know how you get in those moods where you get to thinking if all of the things that you are doing are really what you should be doing.. and should it be more or less… I constantly try to keep a balance in my life. It can be very diffucult. So.. what should I really be doing with my life. Well, through this message that I was studying for tonight.. I realized… that I just need to be fruitful in all areas of my life.. and that brings glory to God. Wow.. it is really simple.. why then does it seems such a struggle to make it not about works.. such a struggle to not be religous about things….
Just some of my random thoughts today!
Ok.. Spring has sprung. Pollen is everywhere!! Glad when that part is over. Already this spring, I have been flung into a new career. Back into the business world I go. Lots of changes, however it all seems so natural. I know that God definitely put it all together. I must say that it was a very hard decision. I struggled with having a secular career, especially as a very involved “Co-Pastor” of Oasis. I mean could that really be the direction God was leading me to. It is funny how things work out, my husband happens to be in a series called “Losing Your Religion”… I realized maybe that was just it. Why couldn’t I be a successful Co-Pastor and have successful career. Maybe in my mind I thought, or religion had taught me that I shouldn’t do that, that being a pastor’s wife meant I should always be there aggravating my husband :)! Anyway, I am thankful for God using my husband through Oasis to not think so narrowly about what God can use me to do.
So, here I go being flung into change… just thought I would share!!!!!!!!!!!!
My husband said this Sunday in his message. WOW!! How true is that. We soooooo major on minor things. It is so easy to get all wrapped up in all the stupid little stuff. I myself have caught myself fussing for a while about something small or getting frusterated over small stuff and then thinking.. wow that was a complete waste of time. Focusing so much on small unimportant things takes our focus off of the important things. Like if you complain and focus on all of your husband’s small flaws, then you start to get annoyed by them… you are missing the major picture! You are not focusing on all of the good about him! I know my husband didn’t marry me because I am perfect. We all have flaws and most of us 😉 have more good qualities than bad, we should focus on the good!! It is funny how if we have a bad day, we focus on that.. we make a huge major deal about it and lose focus on the fact that now we are home with our wonderful families!! Let small things stay small! The major things in my life should take their rightful place.. they are God, my family, church, work…. The minor things should stay minor.. Just a reminder (mainly to myself) keep the first things first!
It is only Tuesday, and wow has it been a crazy week. I don’t know about you, but I feel like I am in the middle of a huge battle. Weird… that is how I have been feeling.. just weird. I have found myself focusing on the weird feeling. Trying to figure it out, try to put my finger on it, praying about it. It seems every time I turn around I am confronted with something or someone 🙂 that is just weird. I haven’t really known what I need to do or deal with. Well, this m0rning.. we lost my grandmother to a long battle with cancer. All of a sudden, my family needed me. Not to consult them, but handle things that they couldn’t tend to right now. You know.. when my focus was shifted from all of this weirdness to being there for someone that I love, that weirdness faded into the background. Then, God sent someone along my path that has a lot of crazy stuff going on, but felt the need to be there for me for a minute… and they started feeling better! So maybe.. this weirdness and all those people popping crazy pills are just distracting us from the people we need to be there for. So. stop the madness. Quit paying attention to how weird it is.. and disconnect from those being weird so you can connect with the people God has assigned you to today!
I have that song in my head today “It’s a New Day”! I use to have such trouble getting out of bed in the morning and getting started. I was the “push the alarm clock just 1 more time 5 times later ” person a few years ago. One day something changed. It is so much easier now. I think it is just because now I have so many things going on in my life and so many different possibilities for the day!! Anything could happen! There are so many areas I can make improvements! Really… God has just changed my perspective! Now I really want to live my life to the fullest!! Anyway.. just a random thought.. with an awesome Buble song!
I was thinking this morning.. (after I had 2 cups of coffee of course) about people being truly happy. There are a lot of people I know that seem to be always critical and in to everyone else’s business all of the time. It use to upset me, but now I feel sorry for these people. I don’t see how they can experience true joy and happiness with all of that going on. I could be wrong, but it just seems to me that would make you miserable. Also, along these lines I was thinking about how some people are so outgoing, loud and even seemingly extremely happy, but when you get to talking to them it is a different story. The outward appearance is just that, only outward. I am truly a happy person, deep down on the inside. Sometimes I am all business and getting things done. Even a little stressed sometimes.. but I am still extremely happy. The old song “I’ve got the joy down in my soul”, I really do feel that joy in my soul. I have throughout the years assumed ( I know about that word, don’t tell me) that people that appeared extremely happy on the outside didn’t need any encouragement, they were great. But I have been very wrong. I also have realized if I am that happy, why do I not make an effort to let it show more…. So I ask you, do you have true happiness inside and out? Also, we need to remember when trying to help others that what you see is not always what you get!!
Wow!!! Crazy week and it is only Tuesday!! I have heard that from everyone. Crazy stuff is happening and people are going nuts!! It is at times like these that we are being tested and tempted that we need to be determined to do the right thing no matter what. Everyone I know seems to be going through a major temptation or testing. Some of them have put on their boxing gloves and decided to fight through it because they know that there is going to be a breakthrough on the other side!! Others, unfortunately are choosing to give in or give up. This is so sad to me! Come on people!! Fight through this. Refuse the temptation. Stand up and fight. God is doing so many great things and there are so many more on the way. I don’t want to see anyone have to walk around a mountain more than once. The enemy would love nothing more than to discourage, undermine and bring destruction. Don’t fall victim to that. We are so blessed, stand up today and take note of all the things God is doing in your life. Don’t be overcome with all the things you think He is not doing. So, apparently the bell has rung and we are in another round… don’t get knocked out!! Put your boxing gloves on!!
You know it is weird that most of the time I don’t even know what I need. What is quite amazing however, is that God always does. It’s crazy but, you know we all have those selfish thoughts… feeling overwhelmed, stressed out, taken for granted or pushed aside. I tend to be pretty good at giving those over to God and moving on. But, God even cares about all of those thoughts. It is amazing to me how attentive He is to us, if we just take the time to listen. I, like everyone else, deal with those “me” thoughts, knowing the whole time that they are just distractions that try to derail me from my course. I very seldom talk about them or bring any attention to them. However, the other day one of my customers at Red Cup came in and out of the blue gave me a scripture that he felt like God had laid on his heart for me. After I got off, I immediately went to look it up, it is amazing to me how much I needed that scripture. How badly I needed to hear that Word from God and I didn’t even know I needed it……
We tend to build our tents and pitch the altar. We as Christians tend to spend less time building altars in our lives than we should. Most of us are too busy building our tents. Our tents should be pitched. Nothing should be considered permanent. We should always have a perspective that at any time God could change the direction of our lives and require us to let go of some things. I do not want to be so rooted in something that the Holy Spirit can not replant me. Don’t get me wrong, we all want nice homes and things and God doesn’t mind us having those.. they just shouldn’t have us. We focus too much time building ourselves our own little kingdoms and we lose sight of the Kingdom of God. We just kinda pitch the altar to the side. We need to be building altars in our lives. Counseling sessions, crying, complaining, silent treatments.. none of these things can help us like building an altar before the Lord. We are usually scared to do that because sometimes we know it will require a sacrifice. Most of the time in requires us humbling ourselves before God and even repenting. So, I encourage you… pitch your tent and build an altar!!