I just came out of one of the most enjoyable weeks I have had in a long time! I know you are thinking, “Good for you!”. But wait, let me tell you why it was the best I have had in a LONG time!
A few months ago, I was trying to find a very large cave, hang a hammock in it and hide out for a while. In fact, I was kind of doing that. I have this great tree in my back yard and I love to sit under it and read. I felt that as I sat under this tree in the shade with the limbs and leaves hanging down all around me, I was hidden from the world. The sun would shine through and warm my face as I read. One day while enjoying my personal paradise, my aunt called. She asked what I was doing and I told her that I was sitting under my tree. She said, without knowing exactly the gravity of what she was saying to me, “God sees you under that tree.”
It occurred to me for the first time that I was also trying to hide from God. I knew He would be displeased with the level of rush I was living and for some crazy reason I thought I could get it under control before He found out. Maybe I am the only one who has these absolutely crazy bad lapses in judgement. I mean, like I of all people should know that you can’t hide from God!
For quite some time my level of hustle had been cranked all of the way up. Living with a stacked schedule, a steady stream of emails, text messages, responsibilities, a kid to take care of, meals to plan, a home to care for, an office to run, and don’t even get me started on social media. All of this will leave you with an anxious heart.
I find that the more I hustle the less I love. All of a sudden people are in the way of my hustle instead of being the focus of my life. I talked with my husband about it and we made some MAJOR life changes. I first resigned my position as Executive Pastor of Oasis Church. We realized we were both way too entrenched and I felt I was not being effective as his wife, confidant, prayer warrior and a sounding board.
What a difference!!! I have much more peace and I am much more effective in the things I am still doing at Oasis. Our home is safe, peaceful and welcoming. We had a guest stay with us a few days this week and I was able to prepare a Father’s Day meal Sunday and invite people into our home. None of this stressed me out at all; I loved every minute of it. That would not have been the case a few months ago.
As I was putting a pan of lasagna in the oven Sunday, it brought me to tears. What an honor to have all of these people in my home and serve them. Had I been living the hustle life, I would not have been able to do that! I felt in that moment the presence of God in my kitchen more than I had ever doing the millions of others things I had been doing.
Sometimes we have to let go of trying too hard, being too involved, trying to be important, conforming to the world’s way of measuring success and just love more.
Some hustle is good! But, when it gets in the way of our love, we have a problem! The world will tell you the busier you are, the better you are. God never called us to live an overwhelmed life. That is what the world beckons you to do so that you have no time to love and serve others.
(Romans 12:2) “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”